Over the past few months it seems that my friends, family, and co-workers have really gotten depressed. Although i know most of the symptoms and stories, these are unimportant (for the sake of confidentiality and brevity, not because the issues themselves are unimportant).
my road to self-confidence is a long one. i'm not naturally self-confident, as it seems my sister received all of those genes. it has been a long and hard process to get to this point, and i've cheated a tad with the help of Kate who really sped up this process. but even in the times without Kate, say when she was in denmark or when i was in Germany... these were times of great self-awareness and growth due to the fact that i was open to change. during my youth i HATED change. say for example if we went to the county fair and a booth had moved, i'd be in a bad mood for the rest of the week. it HAD to be the same. i now have come to the conclusion that this was a mask and i now embrace change (like a change in government... but i digress).
here is a poem that i would love to share with all my friends suffering from self-doubt, weather it be from rejection, job-related stress, or just feeling blue.
by William Ernest Henley; 1849-1903
Out of the night that covers me,
Black as the Pit from pole to pole,
I thank whatever gods may be
For my unconquerable soul.
In the fell clutch of circumstance
I have not winced nor cried aloud.
Under the bludgeonings of chance
My head is bloody, but unbowed.
Beyond this place of wrath and tears
Looms but the horror of the shade,
And yet the menace of the years
Finds, and shall find me, unafraid.
It matters not how strait the gate,
How charged with punishments the scroll,
I am the master of my fate;
I am the captain of my soul.
you can't get more kick ass than that! the POWER IS INSIDE! go forth and kick ass. if you need support.. just ask.. you maybe surprised by who around you responds. there is no such thing as a lone wolf.. for they die. find your pack and conquer.